Hey y’all. So I’m coming at you with a different kind of blog post today… i don’t know if i would even call it a blog post… it’s more like a serious case of word vomit of my thoughts and feelings but we are just gonna rock with it.
I was at the gym today… chest day… and i just got an overwhelming feeling of stress anxiety. Some things in my life are going really great.. i have a (second) job interview on Friday for a new “big girl” nutrition job- which is super exciting (PLEASE keep your fingers crossed for me) and it’s also the holiday season which i love.. i have family coming to visit in a few weeks which is great, i haven’t seen them in forever and I am super excited. So a lot of positive things are happening right now.
What sucks is when you have a hard time appreciating the positives because you’re too busy focusing on the things that aren’t going right. Aka my current situation.
For me, the huge negative I’m facing is that I’m fighting with my friends. A good friend who i care a lot about. I hate fighting, i hate drama, and i hate knowing that I’m the reason this person isn’t speaking to me. I still see them and it’s awkward, and it’s uncomfortable, and it honestly causes me a lot of anxiety. Like hurry to the bathroom so no one sees me crying, kind of upset. Everyone tells me to “give it time, space, blah blah” and yeah.. i get that. But i have a hard time just letting things run their course. I messed up so i want to fix it. And i can’t. And that sucks. Anyone else feel this way? I know i can’t be the only one. Sighhhh.
So how do i not focus on the things/thing making me stressed out and focus on the positives? Good question. Idk. I really should get back to journaling consistently, cutting toxic people out of my life, and focus on myself and my goals and finishing 2017 with a bang. How there is only one month left in the year is literally blowing my mind. #WhereDidTheTimeGo?
Oh, also happening in my life… well just happened… is I’m a brunette now. Never saw that coming did ya? Lol well me either, to be honest. I’ve always loved myself with blonde hair… idk, it just feels like “me”. But literally the thought of going brunette popped into my head a few days ago and yesterday i was like ya know what, let’s do it. No tears were shed and so far i really like it…. my hair was in much need of some TLC and it looks a million times better. Success. #NewHairWhoDis
So idk, yeah i know this blog is all over the place… it’s kinda just a lot of thoughts and rambles for me to figure out how I’m feeling and maybe some of you can relate. There feels like there is a lot on my plate right now. I struggle,we all struggle, and honestly, I’m just trying to figure things out.
I have also been contemplating the idea of doing BLOGMAS again this year… or maybe even the 13 Days of Blogmas… because i don’t know how realistic it is for me to publish a new blog every single day.. But feel free to comment below if you would like me to do Blogmas or if you would be interested in reading. Last year, i did a giveaway and that was super fun. So let me know.
So yeah, thanks for reading my rambles about a million different things thrown into one post. Please like this post if you can relate and subscribe to PBandLaurenKelly.. more posts will be coming your way soon, i promise.
Happy Tuesday, friends! XO,